NeoHippieRevolution

i can't believe i'm finally out

2005-06-06T21:07:00.000-05:00

i just moved out. Packed my things and took off. Finally. i can breathe now... Except, i can't... Or maybe i can... *sigh*

At this moment i'm with my friend Lupe at his friend Clay's house. Clay's cooking out. i'm here... wondering what to do with my newfound freedom.

Lupe and Clay are playing Super Smash Bros Melee... i wanna go play kinda, but i'm not used to playing Smash sober. i'm not used to being sober, period.

After tonight i'll be sleeping at Lupe's friend Matt's. Matt's gay, so it's alright. LMAO! Really, Matt is gay. i've hung out with him a few times so it's not going to be too awkward. Besides, i'm only staying with Matt until Jordi comes down from Florida which should be very soon. Matter of days. Jordi actually called last night, unfortunately we missed his call... :(

It's really hot. i'm in a garage type thing... Except it's not quite a garage... But it's hot. Too hot for night time...

Well, guess i'll go play Smash. And miss Brandon.

_me

Dante's Inferno Test

2005-06-06T21:03:00.000-05:00

So i took this test... Apparently i'm a very bad person. *shrugs*

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-test.mv

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Extreme

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Why It's Bad To Smoke

2005-06-02T04:06:00.000-05:00

There are reasons smoking a lot might be bad. Key words: a lot. But just as eating too much will make you fat and drinking too much causes liver problems, moderation is key.

But... if you're like me, you probably will find the following things true.

10 Reasons Smoking Weed is a Bad Thing

1. It makes you more impulsive.
- i'm already impulsive, so smoking doesn't really help me here. You let your gaurd down and have pretty bad judgement. You're much more likely to just "go with the flow" and ignore the little voice inside...
- On the other hand, if you want to do something, you're going to do it. Smoking pot won't make you kill a man if it wasn't already in you.

2. Forgetfulness
- Marijuana affects short-term memory loss and you lose the ability to learn new things, while intoxicated. Once your high goes away, you're just as sharp as before.
- However, while you're high, you will forget where the lighter is, who has the bud, and maybe even your own name. :p

3. Cancer
- While this is controversial, some studies say smoking causes cancer, while just as many say it doesn't. Common sense tells me that if i'm inhaling something other than pure oxygen, it might be bad. i'll go with the cancer studies and say yeah, if you smoke a lot you're bound to develop lung, mouth, or throat cancer.
- i say let ME decide if i want to go that way. Millions of people choose to smoke cigarettes knowing the risks and it's perfectly legal.

4. Too much WILL make you stupid.
- When too high, you will drop the pipe, tip over the bong, or burn yourself. You will forget what you're talking about. You will be stupid.
- Again, don't smoke til you're stupid to avoid this.

5. Gateway Drug
- Another controversial one... Personally, marijuana was not the first drug i ever tried. It was the third, i think. Statistics show that the vast majority of those who've smoked pot DON'T become regular smokers, and DON'T go on to use "harder" drugs.
- But from experience, i have first-hand seen many people go from pot to other drugs. But i kinda think drugs are like ice cream flavors. Say you try Vanilla ice cream for the first time... it's good. You like it. You want to try another flavor. So you do... and so it goes.
- But since this is a risk, i'll include this is my reasons too much pot smoking is bad.

6. It Reeks!
- Well, it does... It's pretty hard to get out the smell without Febreeze or something...

7. Munchies
- i personally enjoy eating, so this might be considered a good point to some. In any case, you can get something similar to a beer belly from all those munchies!

8. Disapproval
- Many people still don't know the truth about marijuana and look down on users. Afterall, it is illegal.

9. You lose interest in things you once enjoyed.
- This is very true. i've already forgotten what i used to spend my time doing before i became a habitual smoker.
- On the other hand, you will gain interest in food and activities that require little movement like videogames, watching TV and movies, eating out, talking, and well, video games... :p

10. The Law.
- Consequences for getting caught suck. You're in for a whole mess of trouble if you smoke and it's not legal.

Again, it's all about CHOICE. The right to choose to smoke pot just like cigarettes. To toke up instead of a drink in the afternoon. Isn't it time we were given the freedom to choose which way we choose to throw our lives away?

LEGALIZE!

_me

Why i Smoke Pot

2005-06-01T12:07:00.000-05:00

So i was high last night and i decided i love to smoke and came up with ten reasons why. Not an easy task. i oversmoked and it was pretty hard to write. i was tempted to just lie down and sleep... :p

i would just like to note that anything done in excess is bad. If you smoke too much, (like i do) you're bound to have more problems than anything else (also like me.) So this list was made with the understanding that it's okay to smoke in moderation.

i also wrote 10 reasons why smoking pot is bad, but that's coming later.

Enjoy!

10 Reasons i Smoke Pot

1. Things are more pretty.
- It's true. Flowers look nicer, the air smells fresher, and things are just, more pretty.

2. i appreciate life more.
- When i'm high, i enjoy life. i like living. It's crazy, i know. People who know me well know that i walk around waiting to get hit by a car all the time... except when i've just smoked.

3. Yes, things are funnier.
- Depending on how much you've smoked, and how good the product was, yes, things will be funnier. Someone can't talk right and it's hilarious. Movies and TV shows, the best. i'm always up for a good laugh. :D

4. It makes people more interesting.
- There are some people i can't stand sober. But when i toke, and talk to them, suddenly they're not so bad. If you're forced to hang out with someone you don't like, smoking will make them much more tolerable.

5. It eases pain. Physical and otherwise.
- i had surgery and ended up with stitches in my stomach. It hurt soooooooo bad. i could barely move, but i worked up the strength to smoke... and viola! i felt waaay better.
- i'm on many medications for different "problems" and the side effects SUCK. i get nauseous mostly, and smoking really does ease nausea. i'll testify to that.
- Got a brokenheart? Smoking a little bud will make you forget about it for a bit and ease the pain. *nods* i know.

6. It makes me happy.
- Euphoria. If you have never experienced euphoria, you are missing out. That great happy feeling that the world is a nice place to be afterall. Sure, it's not true, but feeling it for a while is pretty cool. i wish i could be happy all the time, but smoking helps me out.

7. It brings people together.
- i mean, my husband and i do a lot of things together, but i don't enjoy anything as much as smoking with him. We take a long walk together to a secluded area, sit back, spark it up, smoke and talk. Just him and me, and it's really nice. We bond.
- All our best friends are smokers too, and when we all get together, it's so much fun. Hanging out together, smoking, laughing, talking about craaaaaaaazy things. i love it.

8. Crazy conversations.
- When else would you have conversations about flying pineapples and talking dogs except while high or stoned? It's fun to talk about things you normally wouldn't cuz you think about things when under the influence that you normally wouldn't. And it's fun.

9. It's relaxing.
- Like i said, i'm on lots of medication. Another bad side effect is insomnia. i smoke before bedtime and i'm sooo ready to sleep!

10. It's less dangerous than other drugs.
- Alcohol kills. Everyone knows the statistics. Other drugs kill. Overdose, reckless driving, etc. While there are claims that reckless drivers have tested postive for marijuana, the truth is weed stays in your system for WEEKS after use. There's no way to tell if a person smoked right before driving, or weeks before. And no one has ever died from a marijuana overdose.

It's all about freedom. Freedom to live your life the way you want. Alcoholics are everywhere and they're not punished for choosing to drink. i shouldn't be punished for choosing to be a pot smoker. Especially in "the most free" country in the world.

LEGALIZE!!

Summer Daze

2005-05-31T09:34:00.000-05:00

i'm up pretty early. i went to go get my Texas ID. Woo! Now i can buy cigarettes without being hassled. i'm always hassled cuz i look like i'm twelve.

Anyway, i've just joined the TreatingYouself.com family. Also been added to PureTHC.com's links list. Also became part of a webring. Woo!! How exciting... i hope all this takes off...

i'm waiting for Jerson to wake up so we can go smoke. It's time for me to get high. *nods* i think we're almost out of weed. Oh NO!!! We *had* money yesterday but SOMEONE *cough* blew it on coke. Damn that cocaine...

_me

Stormy Night

2005-05-30T19:56:00.000-05:00

Today i had a hard time waking up. Could be cuz i stayed up til 5am since there was a storm last night and i was all coked up. (hehe)

The storm was amazing. Hard rain, fast winds, and hail. Lightning, thunder. It was great. i was standing outside in front of the door smoking a cigarette and staring in wonder... Wish i could've been high.

i have a new AOL screen name so my fans out there can chat with me when i'm online. *coughaaroncough* Here it is: hiphilosopher

Easy huh?

i woke up this morning and got online, i think... Eventually ate and went to go get stoned. It was sooooooooo hot today. i mean, 90+ weather. Ugh... The high hit me sooo hard, but it was pretty short.

After i smoked, i went with Brandon and Jerson to Jerson's casa where i promptly fell asleep. i'm telling you, all these nights without sleep since graduation have really messed with me.

Jerson got a new pipe. Is that news? LOL!

Argh

2005-05-28T04:09:00.000-05:00

So i had a few drinks tonight and i feel AWESOME! The drunkedness is already wearing off though.

Jerson's party was kickass. Maybe i'll go back or something...

_me

Where's the party at?!

2005-05-27T22:59:00.000-05:00

There's party going on at Jerson's. Plus, my brother-in-law is moving to Alabama so there's a party going on for him here at my house...

More drinking... i've already had a few drinks tonight. Man, it's so amazing to be drunk... Even more amazing to be both drunk and high... *nods* Being both really gives it a kick. *thumbs up*

Looks like we might be going back to Jerson's house. Catch you laterz.

SMOKE OUT TONIGHT!

_me

P.S. Check out my other blog for a new post of a song i wrote.
http://scorpionwings.blogspot.com

Inhale

2005-05-27T13:14:00.000-05:00

LEGALIZE MARIJUANA!

2005-05-27T12:10:00.000-05:00

i hadn't really been that drunk in a long time. But last night i was fucking retarded. Made me realize how dangerous drunks are.

A girl passed away from the charter school i go to this week. A teacher from a neighboring city was drunk and hit her on her way home from work. The guy had an open container in the car and couldn't even walk or talk when the police showed up. The girl was only seventeen. JESUS!! It's sad...

When you're high or stoned, i don't think it's nearly as bad as being drunk. With moderate amounts of pot, you can still function better than a drunk. A lot better.

i'm practically always high and nobody can really tell. Eye drops, thorough handwashing and body spray. These 3 things save my life.

Being high makes me appreciate things i normally wouldn't. Flowers are a little brighter. The air's a little fresher. People are more intresting. And a lot of things are funnier. *nods*

i can't quit. i guess that's what makes it dangerous. But y'know, it's not that i'm addicted, per se. i just don't want to.

_me

Graduation: The Day After

2005-05-27T11:36:00.000-05:00

Fuck yes! i graduated!! *dances* i was so nervous. We had ONE dress rehearsal in the morning. That was it. And i showed up late to the rehearsal, as did half of the (twenty) graduates. So half of us didn't even know what to do... It was pretty funny.

Anyway, i was all wired at the ceremony. i was listening to the speeches and wishing i could drink some water. Then my heart was racing, and i didn't know if it was the coke or if i was just anxious... So much of my family went. My mom's side of the family and my stepdad, of course. My grandma went. Then my dad went with his parents, his girlfriend, and two of his brothers and their wives and family. i also had a couple friends come along, from another school. Then there was Robert... So many people, they had me running back and forth for pictures after the thing. Then there was my husband and his mom and sister. :) i'm glad so many people went.

After the reception, i was gonna go to a party Lupe invited me to, and Brandon told me to go... then he changed his mind at the last second. (Shocking, i know...) He's always doing that shit and i told him i was going anyway and he said then pack your stuff now and i told him that was ridiculous, etc. So there was a fight until Brandon's mom said her brother Jimmy wanted us to go eat somewhere...

Brandon stayed home, but the rest of us went to Pizza Hut. i wasn't hungry cuz of the coke. "Columbian Diet." LMAO... We were there for a while and i contemplated what i was gonna do... i mean, i only have one graduation night... but i also only have one husband...

i doubt i mentioned it yet, but Brandon and i getting seperated some time next week. i'm just waiting for a friend to come down from Florida to move in with. Brandon and i are gonna take the summer off trying to better ourselves and grow up a little before trying to work things out again. We're not ready for a divorce. We love eachother very much, we just can't live together right now.

In the end, i decided i was going to the party. Even my mother-in-law told me i deserved a night out. So after we ate at Pizza Hut, i went home and got directions and told Brandon i was going. He could come or stay. Well, he decides to come with his best friend (our best friend) Jerson.

(Jerson)

When we got to the party, Brandon started fighting with me so i walked off and started saying hi to everyone i knew. Lots of old friends i hadn't seen for more than a year were there. People i'd known since i was a freshman, and now, i got to see everyone again the night a graduated. :) (i moved to a charter school for the last half of my senior year, so i didn't graduate with the kids i grew up with.)

Eventually, i found Lupe, and stole his drink. i go back to Brandon and we strat fighting more cuz i want to drink and he won't let me. i want to smoke and he won't let me. i want to say hi to everyone, but HE WON'T LET ME. God! Why even bother going to the goddam party?

Finally, he threw his wedding ring into some bushes and declared he was walking home (6 miles, after midnight) and that he would kill himself and for me to blame myself. Um... there's a reason we're getting seperated. THIS! THIS is why! All the goddam lame fighting.

Brandon eventually mellowed out after a drink or so and let me smoke and all that. The party was great. i got very very pukey drunk. Hadn't been that drunk in YEARS... It was great. Straight vodka. Mmmmm... There was coke, so i did a little of that. i smoked a jay with some younger guys who used to have crushes on me when i went to my old school. And it was all good. Couldn't walk or talk or think. Had to hold on the couch i was lying on cuz the room was spinning.

i got home pretty early. A little after 2am, i guess. i had a great time...Which brings me to a legalize pot rant... Coming up next.

Blue

2005-05-27T11:32:00.000-05:00

Me a few months ago...

My First Day of Kindergarten

2005-05-25T15:06:00.000-05:00

i was remembering while high, my first day of school recently... It's funny, cuz i've been having all sorts of early memories coming back to me lately...

Anyway, so i went to school... Funny how i write about my first day of school, the day before my LAST day of school... i graduate tomorrow!!! *dances*

School was nice, it seemed. When i walked in the classroom, kids were everywhere playing with puzzles and coloring and all sorts of good stuff... i don't remember what i did, but i do know that everyone ended up coloring worksheets together.

The worksheets had a big letter on them and then a picture next to it. There were two, one with "A" and an apple, and a "B" with a bird. i colored and finished promptly. But the girl next to me... she was having trouble. She complained that her hand hurt from coloring, so i offered to help her out.

i had my name written on the chalkboard for cheating!!!

Yes, i got into trouble my very first day of school and cried at my desk... LMAO!

And that was what happened my first day of school... i wonder if it was an indicator of what i'd grow into...

Yes, yes it was. *grins*

_me

Bored

2005-05-24T14:31:00.000-05:00

So Brandon's with Jerson at Jerson's house. They're playing GTA:San Andreas... *shrugs* i'd rather be home, online. *nods*

So Brandon now has a blog AND a DeviantArt account. Interested?

You should read his stuff. He's only got one thing posted but he'll get around to adding more soon. *nods*

His Blog:
http://masochisticmartyr.blogspot.com

His Deviant Gallery:
http://masochisticmartyr.deviantart.com

_me

Lit Up Again...

2005-05-24T02:36:00.000-05:00

For no reason at all...

Song of the Second:
Lit Up~Buckcherry

Oh yeah
Ya wanna find it
Come on yeah

I'm on a plane, with cocaine
And yes im all lit up again
Cough up love, and touch up
Your mama said packing lines is sin

And yes I'm all lit up again
On the couch, in my bed
And yes I'm all, lit up again, flying
I love the cocaine, I love the cocaine
Mama can you wait, mama can you wait, yeah

I'm on a train, and ride on
You know the train is staying off the track
I'm in touch love, from this crutch
Well you're in tempt of money, I'm on eleven

And yes I'm all lit up again
On the couch, in my bed
And yes I'm all, lit up again, flying
I love the cocaine, I love the cocaine
Mama can you wait, mama can you wait
I love the cocaine, I love the cocaine
Mama can you wait, oh can you wait long?

Well crack the door for the curious girl cause she's been waiting, she's been waiting
Chop a line for the fending man cause he wants one
You know, you know you got to, can you feel it can you feel it tonight, are you high love, tell me are you fucking high?
In the moment you are just so right
You're right love, are you right love?

And yes I'm all lit up again
On the couch, in my bed
And yes I'm all, lit up again, flying
I love the cocaine, I love the cocaine
Mama can you wait, mama can you wait
I love the cocaine, I love the cocaine
Mama can you wait, oh can you wait long?

Oh yeah
Don't wanna fight that
Alright, yeah
Yeah

Insomnia...

2005-05-24T02:28:00.000-05:00

Well, i can't sleep...

Could be many things...

*sigh*

So i worked with my dad today. Earned some money. We can all guess where that went. *sulks* That's it. i AM going to rehab after graduation.

i'm thinking of moving out. With or without Brandon. Geez, things are so good... and still so very very bad. i've never been more in love with him... Nor have i ever despised him as much as i do now.

i guess that's how things go...

_me

i love to let you down...

2005-05-24T02:21:00.000-05:00

Song of the Second:
Love to Let you Down~Life of Agony

You HAVE to hear this song... i saw them perform at the Mudvayne concert i went to last month. Omigod! This song kicks ass. i recommend dowloading it. *nods*

Willing to start again,
Willing to give another try.
Willing to pretend but still so dead.
Willing to comprehend
Willing to give up all my pride
Willing to forget but still so dead
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you DOWN......
Willing to walk again
Willing to step back in the light,
Willing to forget but still so dead
Willing to turn my head
Willing to let my feelings slide
Willing to befriend but still so dead.
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold is
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you ...
And its complicated
And its complicated
Everything that I ve known
What was up is now down
And its overrated
And its overrated
Everything that I know
And I love to let you....
I love to let you ..........
And its starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold is
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you
And im willing to start again
To give it another try
Im willing to start again

My Other Half

2005-05-21T11:06:00.000-05:00

My husband. He looks pissed... but he's not.

Getting High

2005-05-21T10:56:00.000-05:00

If you look close, you might be able to see the pipe in his hands... Wait, guess not... too small...

The NeoHippie Revolution

2005-05-21T10:15:00.000-05:00

Oh,wow...

i'm surprised those last two posts made sense at all. i was pretty wasted last night. But that's what the NeoHippie Revolution is all about. Getting wasted and having lots of unsafe promiscuous sex... Wait... that was the old hippies did. NeoHippies still get wasted, except they have lots of SAFE promiscuous sex... *nods* LMAO!

NeoHippies are what the next generation is going to become. i'm just a little ahead of the game. It's just that the majority of people i KNOW do drugs. Not just my friends, but people i vaguely know, smoke a lot of pot. It seems everyone around here smokes all the time and i smoke so much i'm beginning to feel like a goddam hippie. Especially with my husband's fucking long hair, my long hair, and that guitar he totes around everywhere...

i want to live like a hippie... Just a little cleaner. (Old hippies were DIRTY!! :P) Do drugs. Make love not war. Peace, man...

Fuck yeah.

_me

My Mental Health (and stuff)

2005-05-21T01:48:00.001-05:00

So my mental health...

i feel fine... TODAY... This second. My moods usually change randomly. But lately as i keep taking my medicine, i notice less dramatic shifts in my mood. Yeah...

Anyway, i've been diagnosed with Manic Depression and PTSD. i'm take 3 medicines... An anti-depressant, a mood stabilizer, and and anti-psychotic. It feels weird to type that out, or even say it: anti-psychotic. Makes me seem crazy...

Sometimes i think i'm crazy... Sometimes, i don't... All part of the way my mind works... Maybe i am crazy afterall... i think i'd be pretty disappointed. To find out i wasted myself on nothing. i know i have potential to do great things... Anything i want, almost...

i can write, i can play piano, i can take pictures, i can debate and be an awesome lawyer... Architecture and a construction company are in the blood, in my family... i could work with the family construction company if i wanted... But i don't know what i want... i don't know what would satisfy me. In fact, i'm scared that nothing will...

i'm scared that nothing will ever make me happy... But why is "happiness" such a big deal to me? *sigh* i don't even remember where i was going with this i'm so fucked up...

i called an "old friend" today. (Literally and not! Hehe!) i love talking to him. Seriously, even if he never spoke a word, i'd still feel good after talking to him. *nods* It means a lot to have someone you can talk to that you feel will never judge you. i do a lot of bad and wrong things and Robert never judges me or thinks any less of me. At least, he doesn't show it. He's one of my favorite people in the world. *waves to Robert*

i wonder when our buddy's getting here... It's 2am and the night is still young! WOO!

_me

Odi et Amo...

2005-05-21T00:50:00.000-05:00

That means "i hate and i love..." (Odi et amo.)

i love not being sober... i think it's pretty safe to say i have a problem. Actually, i'm really seriously contemplating checking into a rehab program after i graduate. (Next week.)

Which brings me to my next point. i think, if you're not going to do anything useful with your life, at LEAST graduate from high school. At the very least. It's important. Sure, you can make it in life without a diploma... But more often than not, you're going to be struggling. *nods*

So i FINALLY graduate. i've invited practically all my family to the ceremony. It means a lot to me to finally graduate. This is the first real good thing i've done in a long time. i know no one expected me to ever finish high school. Hell, *i* didn't expect to ever graduate. But i am next Thursday. *smiles and sighs* FINALLY.

So i did graduate despite a pretty serious drug problem. And it's not just one drug issue like pot. It's many different things. i mean, i started drinking and getting shit-faced drunk at the age of 12. Since Jr. High, i've hardly drank, though. Gotten throw-up-pukey-gross-pass-out-drunk, maybe... once in the past 4 years.

*nods* i'm sorry to say i gave up one bad habit to pick up many others. And i've tried to stop. Trust me. i REALLY have. i have EVERYTHING to lose if i keep up my bad habits. But it's become an actual problem. i can't stop.

But, i have no *real* incentive. i know i have a place to go in a WEEK, where i can do what i want. Meaning: all the drugs i want. And, i have a "for sure" job. Where i don't have to worry about being drug tested. *thumbs up*

*sigh* And usually, i don't worry about my health... That's the least of my concerns... But... maybe my mental health is important... (Just maybe... haha.)

Being on three different drugs is pretty amazing. It's scary how much i love smoking pot, and "other things"...

But really, i want to stop... And as soon as i graduate next week, i'm going to get on the list for the local drug rehab center. There's one pretty close by. *nods* i don't want to live like this... i know doing drugs affects my mood and stuff... My MARRIAGE...

But i kinda like it... i like thinking of things i wouldn't NORMALLY think of while high. It helps my writing. i like doing coke so i can stay up and add more hours to my day. But being on Zoloft takes care of that... i can't freaking sleep on this damn medication!

i'm on 3 medications right now to "manage" Severe Bipolar Disorder, and (supposed) Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. But then again, i was once diagnosed with ADHD, and my *new* doctor says i don't have that... Or, has never mentioned it...*shrugs*

i wonder lots about Psychology and my own personal mental "issues." Maybe i'll talk about that next post...

cough

2005-05-20T16:53:00.000-05:00

So...

It's the weekend! Woo!! What does this mean for me? It means smoking. Maybe a little something else. And probably not even that much smoking cuz we're broke.

That's a picture of my babe. For those of you who don't know i'm 18 years and 3 months old. i've been married for the past 10 months. You'd think i'd be missing out on stuff now that i'm 18 and well, MARRIED. Well, you'd be right. *nods*

Time to make a call...

~Where's It At?!~
_me

2005-05-20T16:50:00.000-05:00

tom

Dazed and Confused

2005-05-19T10:22:00.000-05:00

i'm sooo sober. Haven't smoked for hours. But i'm sure i'll manage. My babe and i keep talking about quitting. It's just one of those things... For me, there's not such thing as quitting "forever". Who the hell would wanna do that anyway?

_me